I hate that anything can royally fuck my moods. I was ok today. I was actually doing really well.
Then I allowed someone to fuck up my decent mood.
Now the dark begins to rise
Save your breath, it’s far from over
So. Here I sit, straddling the line between anger and manic rage, searching for indifference.
Leave the lost and dead behind
Now’s your chance to run for cover
What do I want to look like when my husband gets home? Do I want him to wish he never came home?
All is lost again
But I’m not giving in
Yeah, no. This disease gets too much of my energy without any warning as is. I’ll be damned if I walk into an argument and let them have my energy by choice. Fuck that noise. I teach my patients about setting limits with people all the time; so here we go.
I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away
Lyrics: “I Will Not Bow” – Breaking Benjamin