Yes, yes, I’ve been MIA. Not avoiding my problems, just not coping with them; they’ve made it perfectly clear they are unavoidable.
I’ve stopped attending OA; my sponsor relapsed and since then I’ve lost direction. Not to say that without a sponsor I can’t win this fight, but I felt like it was time to regroup; even someone with 20 years in doesn’t have a guarantee of fighting the beast.
I’m at a crossroads. I either a) don’t give a shit anymore or b) …